Agent Shawnee

So I've been doing a lot of thinking lately about the subject of men. In the past few months I have had a few crushes that well... just go no where. Now I could sit here and think "Oh these guys just don't like me for such and such reason" (and I do!) but what good is that really? I mean fuck... I'm a catch! I may be a chubby bunny with an undesirable face (Yeah I hear that a lot from guys... just not put so nicely) but I can probably bring 1,000% more to a relationship than most girls. No offense ladies but I'm pretty friggin' awesome! I could make a laundry list about how great I am and go on how my face isn't that ugly but that would just be ridiculous!

So why waste my time having these stupid crushes? There is no reason! Sure they may go out with me every time I ask but what do they bring to the table? Sure they may be cute and seem all around great but if they can't do any of the heavy lifting are they worth it? I don't want some lazy ass guy who needs to pursued because either A. He isn't interested but enjoys the attention or B. he has no balls. I don't want A or B! Especially if a guy KNOWS I am interested and still hangs out with me on the regular but never actually deals with information in either direction. Seriously dudes! If you know a girl likes you either make a goddamn move or get out of the way and tell her you're not interested! It's really the polite thing to do you know. Also if you give a damn about her you should really get it over with other than leading her on or hiding the truth.

Now I know what you are thinking... "Shawnee you are a strong woman! Who cares if you are the one that is chasing?!" Well... If I am doing all the chasing how do I know this guy is going to be able to handle me? Yeah I know I am pretty badass and a badass woman needs a badass man to stand beside her! Badass man does not equal a man I have to constantly pursue.

So I am making a midyear resolution. I am no longer going to ask a guy I like to hang out or anything of that matter! If he wants me he can come get me and if he ends up being too late. Well... that's not my problem. I will still be happy in the end and his happiness is none of my concern. I don't care how shy you are, what's going on in your life, or anything of that matter. If someone really wants something they will try to get it and if they can't do that, how will they ever be able to handle me?

I would rather spend a 100 nights with my left hand then deal with a man who can't even try.

Word.

♥ Shawnee